Sunshine – The Cynical YOU!

Is being single not your choice that you have to scream every now and then I NEED A BOYFRIED or put AVAILABLE on social sites? Or is it fun being single hanging around and having more than one guy to date? Is it so good to have some “Hangout” buddies and still keeping your options available? I mean window shopping   or browsing through the heat on social media is cool but you just can’t call dibs on every piece of hot pie around. OR do you already have someone out there to exchange tiniest bit of thought your human mind can produce? Anything from the size of your shoes to the flavour of macaroon you just had at le 13. And you do that and more while being committed to someone else physically and emotionally? That is exactly what Oprah calls an emotional affair. Do you moral-shame yourself for that emotional affair or was the emotional affair allowed on the cheat-sheet with your current? Those flirtatious texts or heart to heart at Macy’s does really mean anything? Or are you the someone stuck between the ex and the next? (i have hell lot of people coming and asking if they should take back their ex or just ditch the past and move on to the next one ).When you have that someone who loves you unconditionally and you just don’t wanna heat that up reason being, FRIENDSHIP IS COOL AND WAY MORE IMPORTANT AND YOU DONOT WANT TO RUIN THAT. You will be the cynical little brat and throw all the shit about your crush on his face and he will just nod in affirmation holding his shit together. I mean he doesn’t have much of a choice, he wouldn’t lose a good friend whom he shares his Louboutins and Zaras with, but it really hurts sometimes! It does and you would know this only if you have been that guy! Trust me! he won’t take that shit forever and time will come he’d really want to bid an adieu, i mean there’s only so much someone can take! How long he has to convince himself that someday you’d take him? Is that the best you can be? You want your friends to be there for you without any expectations while you are having best of the both worlds, I mean its okay to have the cake and eat it too but better is to share with someone who loves it more than you do!

Sunshine : Bien sûr que je t’aime

relationship-abuse

Are there times in your life when you felt so down, all you did was to shut all the doors connecting your emotions to the outer world or otherwise? That deep down you were so empty you’d never give a damn about what is happening around or beneath you? That every sound around is just a cranky noise echoing out-loud deep into your ears? Is the inertia so intense, you have everything and yet nothing matters, not a thing, no friends, no Buscemi Sneakers? OR is that the bad relationship you are in?  Did you feel without a shadow of a doubt once in a life that you were at a right place?  Do those sweet – can’t live without each other – feelings and all those cheese-cakes & cappuccinos you had together sound mistakes and just reminiscing it adds much to your misery? Did those all sweet acts of carving your names together on stones or on beach sand sounds most stupid things you ever did? Did you actually cultivate all sort of nifty qualities that she (/he) holds into yourself so bad that both you sounded a perfect together? Did folding his (/her) delicates and making him/(her) a perfect breakfast in bed sound so good then and is now the time you go nuts even having a thought about it? When planning your Santorini- Mykonos romantic gateway , did you ever really considered the uncertainty beholding the future? Or did you just jump in a relation without a clue of what you were getting yourself into or you never defined what you had with her (/him)? And in that case were you so afraid to define the relationship as it would be limiting the scope of it! Did you think it through (well, except for those beautifully shaped jaw lines or perfectly trained thighs of his/hers)? Had that been such a madness holding it through and let the storm pass by? Or just because you had so much invested in a relationship, so many years and emotions that letting it go would be more hurtful than holding it for uncertainty? You had the slightest glimpse of what it’d turn out to be, would you’ve been in that relation all along? Was that happy – she/he consuming you totally– phase just an infatuation that the only way you can placate your nerves and recover is by becoming infatuated with someone else?

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